No fear of death?

I have no real fear of my own death. I will be dead. There is no afterlife, no nothing.

I have concerns about aspects of my death, but these are about the effects of my death on others - emotional mainly, but also financial to a degree.

I took some odd test about “fear of death” and naturally scored pretty low. What surprised me was that a number of questions related to concern about the future, or that bad things might happen.

I do have fears (and guilt) about the future generally though. The world I live in now isn’t the one I grew up in. The climate is changing, and there isn’t the political will to act properly.

These are nothing to do with my own death. I know full well that bad things will happen, and I have no power or even meaningful influence over them. If anything, my own death will help avoid them - but my fear (and guilt) is about the world my daughter will inherit.

Oh, I suppose there is one aspect of my death that does worry me, and that’s the process of dying. When I do eventually die, I want it to be a good death - low pain, not slow, and I want to remain generally capable. It’s not the death per se that worries me, it’s my mental and physical wellness as I go through life.

I’ve told my wife enough times now - if I’m mentally incapable, pull the plug. If I have some sort of degenerative neurological issues then pull the plug. If I become terminally I’ll and frankly unable to find joy or peace, I’ll put in the request myself.

It’s not that life has no meaning.

Life does have meaning, in how we live and experience it. With others for sure, but even on our own.